Petr Pospíchal

„... they pushed me out (from a bus), took me inside the car and... it was uncomfortable because – and that was something I had realised in the first moment – because nobody knew where I was. Normally in Prague I could make a glance to Ječná and say: “I am going there and there” or something similar, so the things could be reconstructed. But here it was impossible to reconstruct anything, because I haven´t spoken to anybody for a week. May be ten days, because there was a different time period. They loaded me into the car and drove with me through a land I didn´t know... I think that there was an intention ... it seemed to me that they have been having two intentions – one was me not to know where we are going (they were driving me through a land, where there were no signs or village names) and the second to show me, that we are far away from any living beings. Finally we came –using some kind of a road in a field and afterwards a wooden path – to some edge of a rock, which wasn´t abnormally high, but thirty metres are enough, aren´t they?... I could presuppose, that they won´t kill me, but they were hardly pretending, that they can do that as well...

... I reacted in a way, which may seem from the today view a little panic, I started a hunger-strike. For me it was some kind of concentration of the protest against it, against the hopelessness of the situation, in which I felt puzzled and haven´t got any chance of active gesture. I am not used to receive things passively. The State police in Ruzyně were mostly the members of the Army and it looked very hopelessly. The examiners were old men probably working in their posts since fifties. Things were evoking a really evil, uncomfortable, dark feeling to me; the accusation was built on some unimportant crimes, anything heroic; if I was jailed for something really important, but there were only few Infochs (information leaflets) found at the librarian, some tapes with music, I have never been listening – Plastic people and Kryl – which were not mine. It was all looking very crazy and I was feeling very uneasy. So I proclaimed the hunger-strike. I have decided like that, so I did it... But when you start such a thing, you are expecting something to be done for you to honestly end it... And that was not coming...